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Spoonies

I pushed myself 2 weeks ago.  Not the kind of push to build more muscle, or the push to get through a hard circumstance.  It's not the kind of determined push to make your life better; you know, the kind where you need to just stop being lazy and do it.  My body was tired - not the normal tired when you're up too late.  This is all consuming in every way.  It's physical, it's mental, it's emotional, it's jarring.  The kind of tired where you can hardly think, you're body feels like you have the flu and getting up to use the restroom or eat is hard.  The kind of tired where your body tenses up for no reason and bumps into a constant mini anxiety attack for the entire day.  Where you look down at your hands and notice for the past several hours you've lied there on the couch with your hands in fists because for some reason or another that's the assumed anxious position for my hands.   Air hunger is on and off today - has been for days.  It&#

Redesign

Good morning!  This has been a crazy year for me.  I have been finally diagnosed correctly with Lyme Disease - having had it at least 25 years.  This is also my first year since my daughter has been born that I don't have kids home during the day.  That's a total of 19 years people!  So while things during the day are vastly different compared to what I'm used to, I'm able to really focus on what I'm doing as well as my Lyme Disease recovery.  One of the many things I really enjoyed doing several years ago was learning and blogging.  I have from a very young age held the belief that if I am able to help another person from what I'm going through, I'll do it.  So here we are.  I plan to revamp this blog and start blogging more often again.  Your support and prayers over the years over the various trials in my life has been amazing and I thank you so much. See you again soon.