I first want to apologize for not blogging in quite awhile. Life has gotten crazy and I had to take time for my family. In the midst of all this crazy, I have even more so found out that God's ways are not my own. Funny eigh? For years Matthew and I wanted babies, babies, babies. With 3 living children and 4 (maybe 5) miscarriages, then moving into adrenal problems we decided we were done. Did you notice I said "we"? Funny that. Just a couple weeks ago (has it been that long already), my children left with my mother-in-law to go be with her for a whole week so my body could have a chance to rest. At least that was MY plan. You seeing where this is going? The very first whole day the kids were gone, I went to the store to pick up a pregnancy test. Not to see if I was pregnant but to confirm that the reason I was late was because I had been stressed. This in my mind was to confirm I was indeed not pregnant so I could move on with my ...