When I was younger (school age), I didn’t have many dreams. There were things i thought would be neat but nothing I fully pursued. i knew i wanted to be a wife and mother more than anything. Not being in a serious relationship after high school and not having that clear direction I felt like a wanderer; not just physically but in every sense. My mind wandered, my emotions floundered, my heart was undecided. In that dizzying state I began to look for ways to help me forget my lack of focus on my future. I partied a lot, bounced from living in my car to living with friends and new acquaintances. I never felt settled in my spirit and my body followed. It was at the age of 18 I became pregnant with my daughter. “Finally”, I thought, “something to focus on; something to ground me. Someone who would love me forever no matter what.” I wasn’t to be a wife for 4 more years but I was a mother. When I met Matthew (my husband), as we got to know one another better we talk